SaintDerek

" You don't deserve the best if you can't tolerate my worst. "

If whole world is you and me,
Then we both deserve the best of the whole world
because we are just meant to be and willing to go through everything together

<3

posted by SaintDerek @ 12:01 PM Comments: 0

3rd day already.. didn't noe time passes so fast. just a thought of something: ' when time is nearing, u will tend to think back of the past '.. is it really the time? y am i thinking of the past?

Am i not the gd bf to u? Am i not gd enough for u? Did i really change? Or are u the 1 that is changing? Have i been taken for granted? Or i took u for granted?

Y is it someone can tell u that u have change into another person. But did that person ever think of him/herself before saying this? Is it really ur partner is the only 1 that is changing? Or r u changing u urself??

Funny thing is, I've been told so many times that i've change to another person by this particular someone. That I dont treat her the way i used to treat her a yr back.. Have i not treat u the same like last time or rather treat u the best i could? Or have u change into a person who wants more than wat u used to have in the past?

Isn't LOVE suppose to be SIMPLE? People tend to forget even the simplest love when they fall deeper into it..

For mi, love is very simple. Simple things like spending time together without even have to do anything. And not surely have to go out during the weekends.. Simple love is everyday also weekends right??

Love is so simple that this 1 yr i dont have a exciting life with anyone except u.. And even with ur families. These are wat we do during the weekends right? Go for dinner with parents, shopping with them, wash car with ur dad etc..... I'm not those who ask for more.. Simple things like these can make mi happy and make my day worth well. Most importantly is just to see u and have sometime together. That's all I'm asking for.. Is that too difficult??

posted by SaintDerek @ 6:41 AM Comments: 0

GIVER AND RECEIVER!!!!

Its been the 2 day and still counting. I think its quite save to write something here as my blog has been died for so long..




Why is it that young people don't think before they open their mouths? Saying something bland to their friends or loved ones.. Is that the right way? I've been thinking thur Wat have we gone thru this 1 yr, and the funny thing is I'm thinking whether i should back u up when my friend ask mi y go with such a young girl?? This thought suddenly came floating in my head for the last 2 days..




I guess i really understand Wat he (my friend) is talking about. Or rather understand wat he means now. Somehow its really really very hard to maintain a relation with a person who is so many years younger than u. From Wat i can see is that the younger ones in the relationship, be it female or male, the younger one always make things so hard. As in they always talking without much thinking and wanting the older person to filter the sentence.. Right??





" Treat you better " This is a very simple phrase. but not everyone understand Wat it really mean.. certainly not u.. have i not treat u good?? then y r u telling pp u have such a wonderful bf who " TREAT U SO GD ". Are u just saying for pp to get jealous of u? or u r just saying for fun?? This is the different from a LADY and a GIRL. U can see the differences by how they talk and mean things..






For mi, someone said I'm the receiver and i do not care about anything, only know how to receive and not giving.. so here to that person: do i really not care about anything? do i really only receive and give?? am i that really pain in the ass?? do u think u will be better off without mi?? i think its about time to let go of things which u and i keep having a hard time dealing with..





For now i only can see the end.. there's nothing more i can see.. or maybe i should say u will have a guy better than mi?? likewise for mi..

posted by SaintDerek @ 12:30 AM Comments: 0

Get Well Soon

Get well soon you stupid boy!

posted by SaintDerek @ 3:19 AM Comments: 0

posted by SaintDerek @ 10:31 AM Comments: 0

I am the cranky crazy girl blogging for you, love!

Time for sales ?
How many?
Can I keep replenishing in another words, these ' time ' won't be used up?

I just simply wanna use all of the ' time ' to ensure baby and I will be together forever and may we not be separated forever and ever.

Thats so true,
I love you baby! <3

posted by SaintDerek @ 1:43 PM Comments: 0

OHHHH... Come on...

Got a phone call frm someone yesterday.. Talking rubbish things to mi.. So now i just wanna say something back.. My blog r for my FRIENDS ONLY.. If u r not happy or even not too happy abt my post.. Then jolly well FUCK OFF frm my blog.. As i said, my blog r for my FRIENDS.. PP who i DONT BRAND them as FRIENDS pls LEAVE here..

And its so funny y someone will feel anger or even guilty when that someone didnt even do it.. Right pp?? Common sense right??

And y would that someone even come into my blog?? Trying to see whether others r saying ur bad words behind ur back? For mi, if i never did other pp wrong, i wont even scare of wat others say right?? Common sense again right?? haha.....

posted by SaintDerek @ 9:40 AM Comments: 0

Blogged by : MR & MRS JIANG

Mrs Jiang:
I think I have the best boyfriendddddd on earth. Though he always bugs for milk tea, ice cream, plain waffles, food food and food .. but I know he loves me alot. Know what? Everyone each have their own fear in their life but know what Mr Jiang's fear? Not my mother-in-law, not my parents, not me, not death ... but 怕吃不饱. He love sleeping alot too but he's not afraid of insufficient sleep cause sleeping is an illness of him. When he sleep, he really sleep. Close to looking like a dead body except he still breathes. Afterall, he still loves me alot. Though he's abit retarded, but same goes to me.. We are the genuine retarded BA-BIs. (:

posted by SaintDerek @ 9:38 AM Comments: 0

The really fun outing!! =)

posted by SaintDerek @ 6:13 PM Comments: 0

I'm sorry girl.. ( baby, its sound familiar doesn't it? ) haha.. WAT THE.. haha....

Whenever I feel so alone, you're here to accompany me.
Whenever I'm crying, you're here to hug me.
Whenever I'm in the dark, you're here to walk me out.
Whenever I'm feeling weak, you're here to make me strong.
Whenever I need a pair of listening ears, you're here to listen to me.
Whenever I need someone to talk to, you're here to talk to me.
Whenever I'm feeling happy, you're here to share my joy with me.
Whenever I've done something to make you proud, you're here to reward me.
Whenever I've met with obstacles, you're here to help me thru.
Just when I need someone to be here for/with me, you're always here for/with me.
I'm thankful to have you, my dearest girl in my life.
Girl, I'm really sorry. I noe my attitude sucks badly. Even until today, it sucks like hell. I dun mean it, really. :( You dun blame me for my lousy attitude at all. I'm feeling so bad, really bad. I've alr come to my senses. Wei Jie has alr knocked some senses into me which made me woke up. I noe I can stop myself frm having attitude problem. But I chose not to stop. ): I'm taking things for granted, I noe. :'( I feel super shitty. If not I wouldn't have cried while telling Wei Jie abt me showing you attitude alr. Girl, thanks so much for listening to my explanation. Thanks so much for understanding. You're someone who I'll nvr wan to lose in my life. I love you.

does this look sound familiar to u?? Haha... I got it frm someone who dont deserve who care and concern. someone who should be name hypocrite. I think its spell like that.. Nvm la.. As long as u all noe wat i'm saying can le..

anyway i'm just wondering did she ever feel bad abt wat has she done?
Just to name a few : whenever she needs help, be it money, a fren to tok to when she has problems or to the simplest thing like going with us when we dont even mind?
: when someone talks abt ur ex bf while we r playing mj, and u r so affected by it and u run into the room. Did we went into the room to confort u in the mist of mj? Like that doesn't we show care and concern?

: whenever yuting at ur house and i'm going over, did i get supper for u? letting u smoke my cig all u like? But did i complain? U urself noe how u smoke when its not ur cig...

These r just a few points which really anger mi. At first i really treat u like a sis. Not minding u tagging along with mi and yuting when we go out.. Paying for ur meals, drink, cig.. We dont even mind..

But y? Y do u even judge mi when i just quarrel with yuting.. U dont even noe wat happen.. Who the FUCK R U to comment anything? Still can compare with mi with Wilson?! WHAT THE FUCK?? Wilson is someone who has hit u before.. And someone who use ur money.. But have i treat yuting the same as Wilson treated u? Pls.. U r just jealous becos yuting has such a nice bf.. And not u.. And speaking of Wilson, who is the 1 who help u to take back some of the money? Its someone who is so dear to u last time.. Its Tay Yu Ting.. Whom u have lost now..

Guess wat.. we r just so glad to have u lost.. Another words means, we r just so glad that we no longer have u such person to be our fren.. Short of u this type of person, will never make any different to us.. But it will do us much more gd.. =)

Cos we dont have to worry wherther u got money to have lunch while u working or not la.. Dont have to go all the way down to ur work place to bring u go lunch la.. Dont have to hurt OUR OWN POCKET MONEY becoz we worry that u dont have money to eat during ur break by giving u money la.. If by doing these type of things, still we dont consider we care.. THEN SO BE IT.. Like i've said, we dont need this type of person in our lives.

As for now, we have all the money for ourselves. Dont have to worry for another not wanted person.. Have all the fun, spend all the money by ourselves, spending all the time we want.. Life is even greater without u..


Anyway, enough abt the sian thing. Later, the whole lot of us will be spending the whole day together. Baby, Jie Ying, Vincent, Mei Jian, Daniel, Pearlyn and mi.. We'll be renting a 7-seater car to spend the whole day with.. Meeting Jie Ying at 9.30AM at Compass Point to go take the car.. Then i'm going to fetch all of them after getting the car.. Alot of plans.. Still dont noe if we have enough time or not.. But 1 thing for sure.. ITS GOING TO BE FUN FUN FUN AND ITS WITHOUT U.. haha... Stay tune for the pics.. =)

posted by SaintDerek @ 12:59 PM Comments: 0

Blogged by : Yuting

Dearest loverboy,

Thanks for everything you had done for me. Though we had just known each other for a SUPER short period, but i know we still have a SUPER long time together. Just 2 weeks before, we were still strangers but now, we are already a couple.

Age gap isn't a matter and we both know that. Love is all about mutual trust, respect and the overall commitment both can contribute. As long as you are forgiving enough, i am willing to learn and improve myself. From the day i had decided to reveal my feelings and be with you, all i know is I wanna learn and grow with you.

Baby, thanks for letting me know what is love like and also the love and care you had gave me throughout this period of time. Being with you have been one of the happiest time in my life and also one of the reason of my fortunate smile. I am able to be my real self in front of you and thanks for accepting it.

You will be working everyday from tomorrow onwards, and baby i will you alot. No, i will miss you more than alot. So during this time, I will concentrate in my studies. (:

Last but not least, love you baby! (:

posted by SaintDerek @ 4:29 AM Comments: 0

baby!!!

1 great thing happen to mi when 2008 is abt to end.. its such a great thing to start 2009.. i'm sure 2009 will be a great yr for mi cos i've met u.. TAY YU TING!! YES!! its u!! there's nothing better that happen to mi in 2008 than u baby!! i thank u for letting mi be a part of ur life.. lets go thru watever things that the future throw at us k?? hand in hand.. side by side.. last but not least.. thank u baby!! thank u for everything.. =)

though we just started, i can really see the future when i'm with u.. i feel so comfortable whenever i'm wif u baby.. i dont have to wear a mask to face pp.. i certainly hope u r the same also.. whenever i see u, i just smile so silly when u smile.. and when u laugh.. i'll laugh also, not knowingly..

baby, just to let u now.. u really have a that make pp smile kind of smile.. u look so great when u smile or giggle.. no one can ever take that away frm u baby.. remember that ya?? =) so now i really hope u will put down that past and move forward with mi.. can? i'll slowly bring u overcoming that fear ya.. i'll always be beside u remember.. all u need is to just turn ur head and i'll be there.. =) i promise..

some pics we took while having fun.. =)

posted by SaintDerek @ 10:46 AM Comments: 0

=)

anyway this dec is a real busy month for mi.. cos of my sis wedding stuffs.. gotta prepare for her.. but at least things go real well that day.. and i got to say my sis is really happy abt it.. to sis, u look really stunning that day!! i'm proud of u sis!! and to my sis in law, u better take gd care of her ah!! if not... haha.. and WELCOME to the family!! =) here r some of the pics i took that day.

posted by SaintDerek @ 1:13 PM Comments: 0

A GREAT DAY TODAY!!!

hey hey.. today went alot of places to look to the milk colour coat i plan to wear at sis wedding which is 31/12/08!! going be damn busy these couple of months as i'm planning the wedding stuffs for her.. so didnt really have much time to go shopping by then if i dont get my suit now.. and i'm going JAKARTA on the 1st of dec!!! " BRO!!! wait for mi k? " so really dont have much time le..

such a small world it is.. while i'm shopping with Pam today, happened to bump into a couple of pp!! 1st was Yipbei.. i saw her while i'm doing my shopping at TAKA!! and guess wat? she recognise mi.. as i was walking past her, as usual, Pam and i was like laugh all the way.. and when i turn, THERE SHE WAS!!! smiling at mi.. =) glad to have bumped into u girl!! =)

then e other 1 was JOJO!! i bumped into her in Suntec where i'm still looking for that GOD DAMN MILKY COAT!! she's there with her family!! her 2 girls is so big already!! GOSH!! the last time i saw them was at my previous work place.. and they still have to be in the baby trolley.. NOW!! they are walking already lor!! =) seriously when i walk off with Pam after toking to them, i really felt the warm when i saw them!! such a sweet family!! i was thinking when then i can have a warm family of my own?? a loving wife, children, and we can go out everyday hands in hands.. that will be the happiest moment in my life i guess.. and watching them grow day by day will be so enjoyable!!

then as we part our way, Pam was asking mi: the girl( Jojo ) is the mom of the 2 baby girls? how come she can still be in such a nice figure??.. then i told her Jojo's age, she was like: WHAT!!!! haha.. actually Jojo had been thru alot of hardship.. those girls is she got "shotgun" in the previous relationship.. she gave birth to the twins when she's only 16.. damn power right?? and she's 19 now lor!!! haha.. anyway girl, its really heart warming to see u happily in a new relation!! and be a great mother that u will be!!!

so abt today?? today was damn tiring!! walk and walk and walk and walk!!! worst than shopping in thailand la!! and the best part is Pam was laughing at mi non stop la.. say i no use la.. whatsoever la.. but i can never find someone better to shop with as we were joking and laughing the whole of today.. its never boring with someone like u accompany mi shopping!! GREAT DAY TODAY!!!!

posted by SaintDerek @ 11:04 AM Comments: 0

WOW!! its been a long long time since i chatted on the phone with someone so long!! just ended a call with souyan which last 84mins!! YES!! Its u!! CHIN SOUYAN!! haha.. joking la.. anyway hope i've made u feel better after toking.. u must be strong k?!! remember u still have mi here for u if u have any problem/s.. JIA YOU!! =)

posted by SaintDerek @ 12:57 PM Comments: 0

the dark side..

yesterday someone told mi alot of things.. which really makes mi change my thinking towards a couple of pp.. Rachel.. she getting married becoz of shotgun.. and the best part is the future husband cannot make it.. he just came out of prison.. no job nothing.. and when Rachel is being asked.. she say is all planned nicely.. just that the plan came early 1 yr.. what the fuck.. i would never agree to shotgun marriage.. unless i noe i'm ready.. and wat abt the child upbringing? r u ready to be a parent? there're so much thinks to consider.. haiz.. no wonder divorce is so common nowadays.. but i still hope u make the right decision.. all the best..

another story which make mi really see a person dark side.. whom i really think she is a nice girl and things like that.. never will i expect that she will do such a thing.. i'm not going to say who.. but u disgust mi so much now.. how can u do such a thing behind ur bf? and i'm so thankful that, that time u didnt accept mi as a bf.. and its so stupid of mi to did so many things for u.. hiaz.. pls.. pls love urself more.. and grow up pls.. remember u cant cover fire with paper.. if u still wanna carry on with ur doings, i believe ur bf will noe it someday..

posted by SaintDerek @ 1:10 AM Comments: 0

swim and swim and swim!!

haha.. finally went swiming today.. went to my uncle place for a swim with pam.. also to bring down the cooked food for 4th uncle. eat 'heng heng' 1.. coz the cook is for praying my grandpa.. and most important thing is: the food is I COOK 1!!!.. haha.. woke up damn early this morning cos of a call.. Pam!! yes its u!!! called mi in the middle of the night to ask is it confirm got go swiming.. WHAT THE!!!! haha.. no la.. thought of waking up at 5 to start cooking but in the end, cant sleep after she called.. the relax a while then start cooking.. haha.. cook curry chix and bar kuo teh.. haha..

then abt 11 plus went to my uncle place.. meet pam at the ngee ann bus stop then go together.. i must say today the sun damn power!! very very hot lor!! but i like.. haha.. here r some pics..









i must say i really enjoy her company lor.. haha.. the whole day we r laughing non stop la.. haha.. i've enjoy myself very very much today.. all thanks to u.. hugs hugs.. =)

posted by SaintDerek @ 2:18 AM Comments: 0

FINALLY!!!!!!!!

finally its over!! my getai days is over today!! its been super super tiring month for mi!! but its over le la.. haha..

and guess wat?? i got a $150 bucks of ' ang pao ' for 1 of the getai which happen to be in the afternoon.. at first i thought was like 20, 30 bucks as i've recieved a couple of times during this month.. and that was like 12pm - 3pm.. 3 hrs of work and i'm 150 bucks richer!! WHAHAHAHAH!!! then right after that we gotta to rush to another getai.. today we had 2 getai events.. so my pay was higher today.. got $200 buck for my pay.. PLUS!! the $150, my pay was $350 for today!! hahahahahahah.. gd timing also la.. i need to pay my first payment for the car and i need to change my DAMN phone also!! so i'm pretty relived!! =)

GOD!!! really need a short break man!!

posted by SaintDerek @ 10:49 AM Comments: 1

3 MORE DAYS!!!! the month will end in another 3 more days so will be my super super tiring month!! work as a full time also not so tired man!! but nvm la!! i got to noe a lot of new frens!! ( including pretty girls ) haha!!! anyway really got to go see the car already!! dont wish to start work without it!! anyway wish mi gd luck pp!!

got a letter frm my accident lawyer.. WTF!!!! they only get for mi 8K.. but my repair cost is already 7K lor!! somemore got the survey fee la, the papper fee la!! CB i only left with $180 lor.. still got the cheek to ask mi if i accept or not!! OF COURSE NO LA!!! what abt the days i live without it??!! no no no... in fact, its months lor.. NA BEI!!! i'm going to call them tomolo and fuck them already!! remember to stay tune for more!! =)

posted by SaintDerek @ 11:10 AM Comments: 0

this chocolate is so old timer liao!! been very very long time since i saw this.. haha.. really bring back my childhood when i saw this..

my fren who took this say we like father and son toking.. haha..

posted by SaintDerek @ 12:20 PM Comments: 0