I'M SO HAPPY SO HAPPY SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!! =)
FINALLY!!! a HAPPY post!!! after like 2 months, she finally tok to mi on msn!! and we had a really long chat!! we tok abt everything!! first like how she's been for the past couple of months.. she told mi she pass her final theory. and she's going to have her tp soon.. really happy for her.. =) i told her abt my intention of selling my bike also.. she also say gd that i wanted to sell.. but i'm just worried that i might regret selling.. and the most important thing is i told her how sorry am i abt the promise a made to her to have 'our' day together.. and i backed out.. i really live to regret that i cooked up such a stupid thing to le to her.. come to think abt it, it was really stupid isn't it? but everything is going back to normal.. no words can describe how happy i am now!! =)
but now i tell u this girl,: it really hurts mi to have done that to u and mi.. it has been difficult for mi to sms u that msg saying i wont be able to go out with u on that very day.. and backed out.. till this very day, i still hate myself for that.. i dont have any rights to tok to u after wat happened, even i saw u on msn like everyday.. i only can hope and pray someday u will came and tok to mi.. the most i can only go and read ur blog to find out abt ur well being.. i really missed u.. miss seeing u.. miss going out with u.. miss ur voice.. miss toking to u on msn and on the phone.. miss all the laughter we had together.. but today u u came back!! came back to my rescue.. rescue mi frm hating myself even more..
so i thank u for toking to mi on msn just now... thank u for not being angry with mi anymore... thank u for still wanting to be my fren... thank u for giving mi another chance to redo the 'our' day again... the most important than u is, thank u for believing mi again.. i'll never have betray that believe u have in mi again.. never ever again!!
and lastly, i thank u to who ever God up there for not making wanna sleep just now, if not i dont noe i still gotta wait how long before she comes and tok to mi if i slipped this chance.. so thank u also.. =)
today will surely be a great day for mi.. and its all becoz of u girl.. =)
somethings seems to be bothering her i guess.. if not she wont even comment this.. haiz.. really hope that she will share it with mi, but i guess it wont happen that way anymore.. after all this while i still care.. anyway, hope things will be better for her soon.. =)
suddenly dont feel anything when i see their pics last night. really shock mi at first, but somehow i really felt relive! so glad that i finally can let go of her. looking at their pics, knowing they r so happily together, i'm already contented. knowing i'm somehow gone in ur life too. cos u didnt even ask or msg mi how was that thing on 12/6/08. that can tell mi alot already.. but nevertheless, u will always remembered. hope the best for u my dear fren. and hope u will always be happy!! =)
Y?! Y?! Y?! y u gotta make things so hard for us? when u call mi and patrick saying u will be coming back today,we are so eager to go meet u. knowing u r going malaysia and work we r all prepared to meet u whenever u come singapore.. things were great when u went back to thailand,things were also great when we r frens. when u spend money to call mi frm there,i noe its not cheap, and i'm really happy to know u call just to ask abt my well being. isn't that great? but y? y do u have to comment anything to patrick after u ask to see my phone? its ok to let u see my phone and the pics. but y on earth do u have to look at my inbox? its fine with mi if u wanna see, but ASK mi before hand for goddness sake!! correct! there r a few pics i took with 'girls', but they r my fren!! just like u! if u ask for a pic with mi, i surely will do the same thing! and there r a few 'girl' who msg mi, but they r also my fren! i also have patrick msg inside it right?! what the fuck!! u totally ruin everything!! today is the first time meeting u in 3 months! but i can surely tell u this will be the last!! i still cant belive u did that?! still have the cheek to ask patrick to tell mi not to lie to u.. KNN.. who r u to tell mi that?! who the FUCK r u to comment that?! for now, ur image in my heart is so blur, i dont noe who the hell r u! and i certainly hope u dont noe who the hell is mi either!! u r worthless to mi now!! so u carry on walking. u will be passed eventually!!
carry on frm the last blog..
i'm back!! just came back frm meeting patrick.. been really close with him for these couple of weeks.. mainly he is my boss who pay mi after work and a teacher who teaches mi alot of sound system thingy.. i'm getting a hands of it people!! haha.. and we r close till at some point he thought i'm a gay lor!! idiot!! no la.. joking.. cos there was 1 time when i got nothing to do and he's busying put song for the people there. then i draw his name on a piece of paper.. just for the fun of it and mainly i just got nothing to do then when he saw it, he snatch it and throw away scolding mi gay!! haha.. at that point of time i really thought its funny with his reaction buit after that i scold him back la!! then finally i took back the paper and put it inside his wallet.. was quite gay to think of it.. haha.. but i still draw someone else name.. only patrick noe.. haha..
ok back to the topic again.. so after the dinner with mingduan, mi and wanqing send him to vivo city for him to take the ferry back.. was quite sad to see my best fren leaving.. but wat to do? anyway intenting to go over to jakarta today. but was held up at work and due to i must report back to camp on the 5th and some hell place on the 12th.. ok then send wanqing back, was toking on a topic with her and was quite 'fan' abt that.. so i share with her.. thanks girl.. thanks for always being there for mi..
then i fell sick a week ago.. was damn bad la!! was working that day, then i felt my asthma coming back again.. then i got breathing diffculties.. then patrick ask mi to go home.. but i manage to stay till the event finish.. then i went home and sleep.. just got a feeling that it will be worst at night.. and it really happen.. was really bad at night till i have to go hospital.. went to tan tock seng and guess wat? its my sis who fetch mi there.. but with her driving, i rather go myself.. but thanks ah.. =) so went there to see doctor.. had fever,really bad running nose,blocked ear with painfulness,really bad throat infection and asthma.. wat the fuck!! then the doctor ask mi to breath thru the tube thing.. at first was ok then slow i fell numbness on my finger then my whole body,even tok also cant tok.. the first thing that come to my mind was stroke!! my fingers was like retard like those pp that have stroke.. not being rude but just to let u all noe how was it.. then i was like fuck la!! so young then kanna stroke!! i thought finish already.. i'm not even in half of my life then this happen. than i call for my mom as she was just outside the cover corner.. i cant even tok, just make some noise and when she saw mi, she got a shock. she rush to the doctor.. then the doctor say i'm breathing too fast.. ask mi to breath slowly.. wow.. i really got scared!! CB!!
after that went back to c the doctor.. ask for some anti-b***** (cant spell) but he dont wanna give.. CB doctor,make mi suffer for a week then my throat ok.. CB!! these few days like very bad luck la!! last week sick, then yesterday sick also!! CB!! ate the wrong food then vomit 3 times lor! KNN!! the CB food stall sel mi the food that make mi vomit! swear that i'll never eat there again! FUCK!!! but today was full of strength!! haha!! so thats abt it..
after so long of lobo(doing nothing),i really dont noe wat to do already.. some advice frm u pp pls!! going to bed le.. will write again!! bye everyone!! =)
how? how?
its been quite some time since i wrote things in here.. alot of things happen lately.. also dont noe how to say.. first, i'm like jobless for the past 1 month.. all that i'm doing is helping patrick which is only on weekends.. no doubt the pay was gd, u gotta c alot of pp meet different pp.. but somehow i still feel that something is not right.. haiz.. also dont noe how to say.. then mingduan came to singapore last month.. its such a last min thing. and he only come back to buy stuffs for his work over there.. he's here for 2 days.. and he stay at my house.. its like so long since i saw him.. like last yr? and so nice when he came i'm not working at that point of time.. and he wanted to have a piece of kirby art to bring back to jakarta.. he i brought him down to kirby studio.. but he dont have time for him as mingduan was very last min.. but due to is I'm the 1 who broght him down then he push away a appointment to the tattoo for mingduan.. lucky bastard!! haha.. then after that we had dinner with wanqing.. anyway got to go le.. meeting patrick for supper.. come back then will write more.. bye everyone.. =)
