SaintDerek

today when i met you, i immediately became softhearted. i thought i could be harsh and cruel to leave completely but i cant. " just forget everything " , " you are the only angel, good girlfriend and everything is my fault " .. no matter what kind of harsh words you have told me cant push me away. seriously.. why am i so silly to not go away even till now? i know i am harsh to you in my words too but.. it hurts me as well to scold someone whom i love wholeheartedly too..

right now the radio is playing the song " lucky " , the song which you love.

i love you still. nothing have even change.. when i caught 11:11 that day, i make a wish. made a wish for you to come back. even till today when i talk to you, i was still telling you to take good care of yourself and not to do things rashly.

i know i am irritating, i know you want me to move on. this is not because i am stubborn. this is because i love you too much to move on. how to move on when i remember you writing you will marry me on kiefer's writing board? how to move on when we plan our future together before? how to move on when i threw away my life to take care of your's before. do you know the amount of love i have for you when i can care for your life more than mine?

is the board still at your place? do you still watch the montage i did for you? do you crave for those things i bake for you before?

lastly, do you still love me? can you pls take me back??