Tuesday, May 17, 2011

why?
i am not yet over you.

posted by SaintDerek @ 4:34 AM Comments: 0

Monday, May 16, 2011

' today my mom said something that struck my heart. she said: " must be able to take it if a relationship fail. if can't take it, better don't fall into it. after all, u will be the one suffering.. na de qi, yi ding yao fang de xia.. " was quite amaze by it!! haha.. '


this is so true. and this is the explanation why there isnt any changes to my heart yet. i would rather feel heartbroken over you than to have a new person coming into my life again and falling again like a repetition.

posted by SaintDerek @ 6:06 PM Comments: 0

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

isnt this suppose to what was in your mind all along?


If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with. You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, and my overactive tear ducts. You are falling in love with my past, my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with all my flaws and imperfections. But if you fall in love with me, you’ll also love the way my eyes dance when I’m with you and the way my head fits so perfectly into the groove on your shoulder. You’ll fall in love with the occasionally humorous and thought-provoking things that I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. You’ll also fall in love with how I give the best of myself to you without any reservations. I hope that’s enough for you, I really do.


posted by SaintDerek @ 1:18 AM Comments: 0

Sunday, May 8, 2011

7 months have just past a few days ago, and i have seen so much outside throughout this period of time.

my lifestyle had changed, my hairstyle have changed, my weight have changed, new groups of friends, tried different jobs. what about you? still the same or have some little change? my character changed as well. becoming more naive, becoming more honest.

so much have changed that made me see alot and cross-reflected to the quarrels we had in the past. when we just broke up, what i see is all your fault but till now, i have figured out more things which i wished i had figured out in the past.

and after all the cross-reflecting, i realise something which did not change a single bit. i still love and miss you like always. i texted you a casual msg to remind you to take care of your health etc but the reply i received was yea, casual as well. so i told myself ' chances of even rekindling our love is kinda hard '.

i wouldnt say i would wait still. i will just keep moving on like how i have been doing. when its time, my feelings will eventually fade off. or even if we are fated to be tgt again, we will meet again in the future.

hang on my dearest boy, your difficult times in life will soon be over as long as you work really hard step by step.

posted by SaintDerek @ 7:01 AM Comments: 0

Thursday, May 5, 2011

what happened to you? why did you lose so much weight? havent you eat enough like how you used to?

please remember to take care of yourself.
remember lesser fan plus air -con together please.

and just now i have a sudden urge to text you. i miss you.
do you feel the same too?

posted by SaintDerek @ 3:22 AM Comments: 0