not i dreamt of you. the dream was so real that i felt your hands holding on to mine.
i decided to text you and it was after plucking my courage to tell you how much i miss you. but before i even manage to tell you, you are there telling me how sad you are over "k" . even more than joyce whom is another girl who i know you really loved.
right here im thinking, what about me? was i ever in your life before? i guess no. after this convo we have, i've got my answer.
my heart aches and i do not know how am i able to let out this overwhelming emotions. why is this so?
and the person that im talking about is you.
maybe im just being dumb and silly to choose this tougher way out. i chose to listen to all the heartfelt words of how much u love her, miss her and dying to marry her. every words of your's pierced through my heart. i cried while trying to be sympathetic and to accompany you.
yes. this cruel and harshest way will work. at least a new way to try to get rid of you forever in my heart. its tiring to love you on a one sided basis for 11mths.
and not to forget, happy 11mths after we went seperate ways. today is the exact 11mths. and hopefully, it will stop counting on soon.
i dont want to love you anymore. i dont want to miss you anymore.
yvette's back.
sitting at starbucks talking to her about why we broke up really make my heart aches.
i miss you so much bee! really. heart never fail to ache when i talk about you.
you sure nowadays ladies see your resumes before being together with you? its most girls out there, or just that special new girl of your's?
'where's the working hard tgt for a better future'
omg, this is all so and familiar. it seems that when you wrote this 2 status, you totally forgot about me- the girl whom you told her that you are so grateful for her to go through every single thing with you when you were at your lowest point of your life and you know no one can ever do it.
so are you trying to tell the world you didnt have any ex-girlfiend who did all those for you and didnt judge you financially but only accepted u cause she love u as a whole?!
today at compass i thought i saw someone who looks like you. i was shock and my heart was pumping so fast that i couldnt breathe.
i realize how deeply i have always been missing you. its really really deep like as tho we are still together and its just that you are not beside me. how silly am i to actually describe it that way, haha!
anyway i am really thankful for the existence of this abandoned blog for to write all my feelings in, and also for the fact that you have not read a single thing thats written on this space even till now.
nothing has changed in missing you even after close to 11months.
next time instead of calling to just ask for help, can you at least ask me how am i before asking for help like how u intended to?!
