1 year ago, i was very sick and you were there taking good care of me making sure i will recover by the time we go thailand. a year later, i am down with a fever of 38.9 degree celsius for 3 days and i got to juggle it all on my own. and at this time, you are taking care of another girl - a new love of your's. glad to see how meticulous you are to even cook barley for her. she's really fortunate to even get to taste your homemade barley.
2 years ago, i remember cutting your bday cake tgt with your relatives, family and our friends. 1 year ago, we were cutting your bday cake humbly downstairs my house. and this year, someone will take over me in your life, your heart in doing all this and cutting cake with you.
this will be my last post for you.
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to jiang ah bee
happy birthday to you..
baby happy birthday * muacks *
wishing you all the best for you and k*
based on being the chosen one, i believed she will be a good gf and a future wife of your's.
bye jiang ah bee. bye to everything which we once had. i wont be waiting for you anymore. i will too go find my mr right.6 mths is enough to prove that our fate has already ended and this is definitely my greatest regret in my life.
last but not least, my love for you has never decreased a single bit. but for now till then, i am scattering my love for you into the sea and let it just float away and not come back anymore.
i was worrying and thinking too much. you might already have a wonderful birthday coming your way.
all the best!
About six months
how have you during this period of time? still okay?, sincerely hope you are.
me? still struggling even till now.
for the past few 2 years, i would be busying preparing for your birthday. march has always been the busiest day of my year. but now, is anyone busying for you? racking their brains really hard to make you the happiest boy on earth on your birthday?ordering your fave black forest from pine gardens is what i intended to do. but i dont wish to spoil your bday as you once told me that you are now better off being single. dont wish to remind you of your nightmare on your bday - the day which i never failed to make you happy and feeling fortunate to be in this world.
today is really scary for me, everything rushed its way to me. its too much for me to handle, i see your shadows everywhere i go - thought about everything, from the sweetest time to disastrous time.
sat outside macdonald's and the image of how i used to wait there for you to end work came to me. guess the happiest time of mine was being able to sit there to wait for you to finish work almost everyday? and also buying your chosen choice of ice cream and apple pie. then i went in to see the image of you sitting beside me with my laptop and your ice cream while i am studying for my exams. and then our image of walking and talking rubbish on our way home.
went to blk 237 7/11 where the images of how angry you were with me and i was hiding at one corner. then the whole journey of running away, hiding and dragging things go onm. and how i received a text to go back together.
and i immediately wanted to slap myself hard, to wake up from the most awful dream i have been living in for the past 6 mths. why did we stop there? why did we fail at that point of time? why didnt we made it through? were we too weak as a couple to make it through?
did you miss me? are you still missing me? am i still haunting your life like how you are doing to me? will we ever meet again with u telling me ' baby, i am here to bring you back.. to take you with me ' ?
i really wish to hear something. something which you used to tell me to make me less afraid ' baby, dont fall. i am your pillar of strength and i am here for you '
baby, will u?
